I wrote a whole post about this yesterday and then decided it sounded too whiny (probably because I was whiny yesterday). Ohhhh, growing a human is hard? Who knew?? Oh yeah, everyone. Boo hoo hoo for me.
But seriously...it IS hard. In some ways I expected, some ways not (though expecting a thing doesn't always make it easier to deal with). Overall, I'm probably in the middle of the pack as far as symptoms go--not as bad as some, worse than others. But since my discomfort means more to me than those some and others, that perspective was only helpful sometimes.
I have long had this secret belief/hope/expectation that all that (Irma-related) throwing up I did earlier in life meant that I would be exempt from it when it came to growing babies. This...was not true at all. Probably I should have assumed that because I threw up so much from Irma, I was even more likely to throw up now. Apparently it's some kind of talent? Go me?
But as uncomfortable and frustrating as the process can be, it is really amazing that this how new creatures are made. And I mean that very generally (hence "creatures"), for all mammals. I can sit here, twiddling my thumbs and my body will be, like, putting genes together and building kidneys with absolutely no conscious thought on my part. Isn't that wild? But it's also a good thing because my knowledge of genes can be summed up with "genes exist and are important."
It does make me wonder if there are mama bunnies out there with swollen ankles and food aversions.
Of course, not every body can do this as readily or easily as others do. Sometimes you have to get tennis balls and endometriosis and cysts taken out first. Sometimes you have to do a lot more. So, you, my friends who are still working on growing your own babies, I haven't forgotten you and I think of you often. Success (and babies) will be yours one day--I really, truly have no doubt about that.
But back to this particular human I'm subconsciously growing. I have been feeling him squirm around for a few weeks now, and yesterday I even SAW his pokes and prods. So strange! It's weird to me, still, that there's a person in there and one day in the future they'll be asking me if dinner is ready YET. (And then, since the Speck is a boy, he will proceed to eat my share of dinner too and ask when there will be second dinner)
The whole boy thing makes me a *little* nervous. But then I remember that I build
awesome train tracks, and I already know the theme song to Thomas the
Train, and I think dinosaurs are rad. So we should be set. One day, after he eats all my dinner, we'll watch Jurassic Park together.
I also have to admit that one of my first thoughts was that I'm going to peed on! I know, a terrible thought--after all there's NO bodily fluid worse than pee, right? (...) I think I'm latching on to this fear because it's easier to deal with than my fear that I HAVE NO IDEA OF HOW TO CARE FOR A NEWLING INFANT. (Or an oldling infant for that matter) Luckily Drewbles has plenty of experience because I'm pretty sure I will resort to standing over yonder and just poking the thing with a stick.
(I also worry that I'm going to lose my bum. D:)
It seems unfair to write all this about the Speck and not show a single picture of him. Here he is, hungry as always! (Always, always, always hungry. Oh wait, that's me.)
Well. Here's to just over the halfway point! I can only hope it's all downhill from here...hah! I'll settle for less vomity.